I haven't posted in A WHILE.  Actually it says I havent posted in 37 weeks.  Reason being is because life has been hectic.  

I finally graduated college and I'm now working full time at an advertising agency.  It's super stressful and time consuming which causes me not to focus on my body... which is "good" in a sense because I'm not obsessing as much... BUT it is BAD because it has caused me to gain weight.  I work sometime 13 hour shifts and I am unable to make it to yoga in the morning because of how tired I am.  Plus, because I don't get adequate sleep, I am more hungry.

ugh.

I'm trying so hard to get back on track.  please give me some words of encouragement.  Thank you so much.

I hope everyone else is doing well.  Have a wonderful day!  :)


xx

Current Mood: working
Current Music: SPOON

i bought some delicious V8 juice a few days ago (havent had it in years) and i opened it up and drank a few swigs--- completely took away my hunger!

ok ladies, here's the idea.

there are 50 cals in every serving (8 ounces). There are 6 servings in the container.  Totaling 300 cals for the whole bottle.  I'm thinking i'm gonna make up my own "V8 diet" and swig on it only when I'm feeling hungry throughout the day.

It;s low cal AND you get a lot of vitamins and nutrients.  Plus I dont NEED to finish the whole bottle if I don't want to.

It sounds good to me.  What do you think?

:)

Current Mood: amused

i was doing so well, i lost almost 10 lbs last week and a half.  then last night i binged like crazy.  i weighed myself and gained 3 lbs just from yesterday.

i'm so mad.

i feel like such a failure!!!

please help me.  i need some support.


xx

Current Mood: angry

i met a friend for desert and drinks.

it was a fondue place.  so i stuck to the fruits and dipped then lightly.  i hope im not giving anyone a craving.  if i am sorry.  my bad.

anyway, so i feel guilty about it because ive done so well all week.  i lost 8 pounds since last friday!  i'm going to the gym in a bit to try and work off the fondure from last night.

grrr...

Current Mood: annoyed

sorry i havent posted in a while.  i got a small case of food poisoning, which was good cause lost 7 pounds.  it's the only good thing that came out of it...

how is everyone doing today?

xo

Current Mood: happy

i guess i should introduce my self and my situation...  i hope i'm not judged too harshly.

i have been struggling with my weight since i stopped dancing.  i was a dancer from a little girl until i was about 14.  i was always naturally thin and never thought things would change. well, they did.

i've been yo-yoing for years.  i was addicted to diet pills for a few years which really messed up my metabolism after i got off.  that was the hardest thing i've ever down.  it was like i had absolutely no natural strength left...  (mentally and physically)

since then ive been doing my restrictions and running a lot.  i do more restricting when i know i have to look extra good for an event or be in a bathing suit.

bottom line, i'm never happy with what i see when i look in the mirror... and i have a lot of mirrors in my apartment that i can't get away from.  you know how you tend to gravitate toward the things you can't stand?... i dont like looking at myself, but yet i find myself needing to see how i look.  its exhausting.

anyway,  hope everyone is having a great day:)


thanks for listening.

Tags: feelings

hello,

i'm not quite sure how to use this.  i dont even know how to comment.  i'm sure i'll figure it out....


:)

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Current Mood: happy